The explosion came this evening when dad got home. I’d read about people’s faces changing colour but I didn’t think it could really happen. He was trying unsuccessfully not to get angry, even mom looked worried (I wonder if he’s ever hit her?). My report this term was seriously bad. I told them it’s what they should expect considering I haven’t done any work. This was definitely a ‘Charlotte’ moment.
What they don’t know is that I’m mid experiment. I wanted to scrape the bottom and see how long it would take to get back on top again. I reckon a month. The cretins have nothing to worry about. It’s amusing in a twisted way to see them writhe around a bit.
They told me to go to my room, using ‘Charlotte’ instead of ‘Lo Lo’, it was where I was going anyway, I haven’t got anywhere else to go. Like I said; cretins.
So here I am twiddling my thumbs. I’ve just finished up re reading the work we did this term in maths, I’ve only got to go through the rest tomorrow and I’ll have caught back up.
(Interruption while mom ‘softly knocks’ on my door to see it I want to talk – as if I’d waste my time ‘pouring out my heart’ to her). In two days it’s the Easter holidays – SHIT!
School is boring most of the time. There are so many morons, we take years to get an idea into their heads and they’ve forgotten it a week later. I keep to myself at school, they all think I’m a freak of nature anyway. That covers most people. GrandpaBill is just about the only person I can talk to ( he’s the only one who calls me Charlie ). Often he just listens, even so, I can tell he doesn’t understand me most of the time.
I don’t know where I belong; I wish I could go back to being small when everything was done for me and I didn’t mind.
I don’t like feeling like this. I don’t want to die either, if that’s what you’re worrying about.
My name is Charlotte, my parents and friends call me Lo Lo, except for when they’re angry with me, which is most of the time at the moment . I’m fourteen years old (nearly 15)
I hate my mom
I hate my dad
I hate school
I hate most people
I hate being at home
I hate going out
I hate being with people
I hate being alone
I hate HATE!
I read somewhere that it’s a good idea to write things down, so that’s what I’m going to do from now on, but don’t think this is anything as cheesy as a ‘diary’.
The list above is in the order of what I detest the most. My mom comes first. She thinks she’s so perfect and she’s always right. Thank God I don’t look like her, I think I’d explode if anyone told me I look like her. I’m like my dad, I’m clever like my dad (I can’t wait for him to see my report – it’s going to prove everyone wrong) and I have inherited his dark hair and brown eyes, which I hate too and I forgot to put in the list. Did I mention my rule. I’m not allowed to change anything I write here so my feelings stay 100% honest.